Are We Here?

Sometimes, I'd like to think, at least, that no one is watching.
Does paranoia play into the picture when one decides to do something uncouth against nature regardless of the situation?

I don't know.

Do you?

Narcotic drugs, especially of the amphetamine/meth-amphetamine variety takes on  a personal hell for all those involved. I had an (thankfully) extremely brief love affair with Tina and my bffs, E and G in a previous life that was abruptly cut short, albeit somewhat a bit late, through my self awareness and finally through admittance that my behaviour was not just unacceptable but also spiraling dangerously uncontrollably.

I'm not ashamed
But
It has changed me.
As a person.
As a whole.

Drugs of any narcotic nature will absolutely steal and consume the very soul of the person (when used in ways that are not prescribed). With no remorse. With no recompense.

My experiences has changed me enough that I've learnt and continue to learn to become a better person. I am able to see it for what it is. An unnecessary evil devised to keep certain societal factions and its users unluckily downtrodden. It is a succubus on the psyche of society. Like a slap in the face of humanity in all aspects that it seems immorally game to ridicule and to cause, as humans, to become desensitised to all those whom fall prey to its effects, whether willingly or not. Just look at what has become of the neighbourhoods that houses meth and crack dens.

I hope that those whom are afflicted with this social disease, somehow find strength to seek help. Life may seem like one fucked up, harsh arsed bitch, but it is up to the individual to rise above whatever cards she has been dealt with. Walking down the lonely highway with myriad of forks along the way, one ought to remember that there will always be consequences for every action we take. There will always be a reaction to every action. There will also be a chain reaction.

Only cowards take the easy way out.